One Of Those Days….

   Did you ever wake up and were just crazy emotional for no reason? Well, welcome to my day. Also was a huge creep bag on FB and seen some shit posted about a deceased friend of mine that I know is complete BS. Which set me off. I dont know why all these so called  “ex’s” and “bff’s” magically appear when somebodies passes, but where the hell were you when they were alive?! Really though…. So now I am up to 9 supposed “gf’s” he had when he passed away. Cause you know when somebody dies, everyone dated him or was pregnant, yet none of these supposed kids were born. I get emotional over this because I feel like he should still be here. Time doesn’t heal anything. I always wonder who he’d be today if he were here and there’s just moments in my life that I feel like he should of been apart of or missed out on. Times when a certain song or somebody saying something or a series of events that just make me think of him. Rest peacefully dear friend. You are never forgotten. 


   Also today my little bro commented on a post a wrote on his wall last week which made me tear up. Let me explain this situation, as he isnt biologically my brother, but blood doesnt mean you have to love and neither does not being related mean somebody isnt your family. His mom, my Aunt Lisa, use to be my mom’s best friend. They hung out, grew up in the same neighborhood, she has always been in my life. In fact her whole family has. They are like an extended fam to me. I was always at Lisa’s as a child. Always. When I was in high school I lived with her. Which made Jonathan feel like a little brother to me. We played PS2 together, he use to sing me songs on his karaoke machine, I remember I would go in his room and sleep with him and watch kid movies when he had nightmares LOL, one night after watching Signs, he woke up freaking so me and him had a Harry Potter night until he fell back asleep. I’ve known him his whole life. Anyways I will post what I wrote and this is what made me tear up, cause I’m a huge baby obviously.


  • I can’t believe how grown up you are.. drinking, gf’s, tatted all up,its makes me feel super old. Always think of you as little Jonathan that I played PS2 with hahaha love ya like a brother buddy. Always will. You and your mom and Tammy were like my extended Fam. Proud of you and who you turned out to be and this summer I’m stealing ya to come fishing and have some beer with us. Love you guys tooLisa Dignard and Tammy Dignard
      Jenna LeBlanc Oh and come visit me butthead I live right by you now on Montreal Ave!!
      Jonathan Ewart I would love too !! I miss you very much we need to get together soon  love ya
        And that right there is what tore at my heart. Probably doesn’t help matters that my sister in law, also had a complicated birth this weekend. She was over her due date. Got induction gel a whole whack of times, which did nothing for her, so they gave her an experimental drug to see if that would help. Seeing her go threw her contractions was sad, cause I felt so bad for her. Then her water broke and her little bubs decided to make an appearance almost 12 hours later,which also was complicated cause he had the umbilical cord wrapped around him and fluid in his little lungs. He is now here however, and healthy, but he is in NNICU. Momma is doing fine, and no longer has IV, so hopefully they both can go home very soon. 
          Funny how a series of events can make you so emotional.I just feel like anything said to me at this moment could probably make me cry. That being said, we went to the florist to get some flowers for Mim and the florist was a complete weirdo. I guess I walked in with 6 heads or something because everything i said, she would just pause and stare at me for like ten minutes afterwards, not saying anything. Then she says to me “Oh, do you want me to go out back and make it for you?” Ummm yeah lady, like did you want me to go out back and make it myself?? Then she says, oh well, are you gonna wait in here, its gonna be a 20 minute wait and Ne says Yes, and I’m like Hell no that lady was weird, I’m not waiting in there. Cause it was an uncomfortable feeling afterwards. Anyways…just having one of those days lol
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